I feel spiffy wearing a tie

So I wore a tie tonight. Yup. I wanted to show respect by dressing up for the event I was attending, and right now, for me, dressing up means a tie. I’ve worn a tie before but only at home or at my brother’s house – not out in public. So this was kind of a big deal.

I took a shower. Spiked my freshly cut hair. Put on my Value Village starched collar white shirt. And tied my tie…and well, undid it and tied it again…and, umm, undid it and tied it again. It’s darn tricky to get those things just the right length.

But I succeeded. Took a look at myself in the mirror and felt pretty darn spiffy.

I’ve had a slew of people tell me, even just this week, that I seem much more comfortable with myself lately. Even my hairstylist says my demeanor has changed dramatically since she first met me and chopped off my long hair a little over four months ago. I think I’ve mentioned before that I sometimes fear people will think I’m caving to some sort of lesbian stereotype by styling my hair and dressing as I do, but comments about how well this look suits me help allay those fears. This is me…finally unburied. And for the first time in my life, I quite like me. As I said…I feel spiffy.